A funny kind of sad

I've been feeling:BLUE
DOWNRIGHT DEPRESSED
LIKE I'M A DOT
IN A SEA OF LETTERS
SO INSIGNIFICANT

I've been feeling like
EVERYONE'S MAD
I'M SANE
THEY'RE INSANE

I've been feeling
ODDLY TEARFUL
I was talking to a colleague today
Felt a sniffle coming on.
PMS was over days ago

I've been feeling strangely overwhelmed
and it's not the work
No, just overwhelmed with thoughts of despair
and something else
A funny kind of sad

Not the sadness
of being wronged by another
This is a funny kind of sad
It's sadness at lost optimism
Sadness at not being able to find the optimism

I'm sad because I can't shake it off
I try,but this saddness is funny
It's hard to completely shake off
It's just lurking

This sadness is about loss of idealism
Loss of energy to keep the ideals
No longer feeling that I can keep up this struggle
Sad for the reduced number of fighters
As others go their sad way into ego, money, bling...

Sad at what little control we have over our destiny
Sad at my sisters and brothers
Especially the young ones
For knowing they might never be in control
And a rational part of me knows that this is not quite true.
But the despair will not let me see through.

I told you, this is a funny kind of sad
A funny sadness
I know it can't last forever,
But for now
I'm just in this
funny
sad
place

DOWN

Feminist Theory

Feminist Theory is a global peer reviewed journal that gives a forum for important analysis and effective dispute within feminism. Feminist Theory is actually interdisciplinary and reveals the diversity of feminism, including perspectives from across the broad spectrum of the humanities and social sciences and the complete range of feminist political and theoretical standpoints.

Feminist researchers hold two key tenets:

• their research must center on the condition of women in society, and
• their research must be grounded in the supposition that women usually experience subordination

Hence, feminist analysis declines Weber's value-free orientation all for being visibly political—doing analysis in pursuit of gender equality.

Feminist

Feminist theory is the extension of feminism into theoretical or philosophical fields. It encompasses work in a variety of disciplines, including anthropology, sociology, economics, women's studies, literary criticism, art history, psychoanalysis and philosophy. Feminist theory aims to understand gender inequality and focuses on gender politics, power relations, and sexuality. While providing a critique of these social and political relations, much of feminist theory also focuses on the promotion of women's rights and interests.

Themes explored in feminist theory include discrimination, stereotyping, objectification, oppression, and patriarchy. In the field of literary criticism, Elaine Showalter describes the development of feminist theory as having three phases. The first she calls "feminist critique", in which the feminist reader examines the ideologies behind literary phenomena. The second Showalter calls "gynocriticism", in which the "woman is producer of textual meaning". The last phase she calls "gender theory", in which the "ideological inscription and the literary effects of the sex/gender system are explored". 

This was paralled in the 1970s by French feminists, who developed the concept of écriture féminine (which translates as female, or feminine writing). Helene Cixous argues that writing and philosophy are phallocentric and along with other French feminists such as Luce Irigaray emphasize "writing from the body" as a subversive exercise.[26] The work of the feminist psychoanalyst and philosopher, Julia Kristeva, has influenced feminist theory in general and feminist literary criticism in particular. However, as the scholar Elizabeth Wright points out, "none of these French feminists align themselves with the feminist movement as it appeared in the Anglophone world".

Feminism

Feminism is a collection of movements aimed at defining, establishing, and defending equal political, economic, and social rights for women. In addition, feminism seeks to establish equal opportunities for women in education and employment. A feminist is "an advocate or supporter of the rights and equality of women."
Feminist theory, which emerged from these feminist movements, aims to understand the nature of gender inequality by examining women's social roles and lived experience; it has developed theories in a variety of disciplines in order to respond to issues such as the social construction of sex and gender. Some of the earlier forms of feminism have been criticized for taking into account only white, middle-class, educated perspectives. This led to the creation of ethnically-specific or multiculturalist forms of feminism.

Feminist activists campaign for women's rights – such as in contract law, property, and voting – while also promoting bodily integrity, autonomy and reproductive rights for women. Feminist campaigns have changed societies, particularly in the West, by achieving women's suffrage, gender neutrality in English, equal pay for women, reproductive rights for women (including access to contraceptives and abortion), and the right to enter into contracts and own property.

Feminists have worked to protect women and girls from domestic violence, sexual harassment, and sexual assault. They have also advocated for workplace rights, including maternity leave, and against forms of discrimination against women. Feminism is mainly focused on women's issues, but because feminism seeks gender equality, some feminists argue that men's liberation is a necessary part of feminism, and that men are also harmed by sexism and gender roles.

Knick Knacks

I wonder why some people treat working spaces as spaces to go on the prowl for dates? Don't they know that this is so daft, especially when the targetted ones are clearly not interested? To make matters worse, you enrol some sistas in your mission? How laughable, as you come over with that visible band of gold on your left hand - the dead giveaway, that you're playing away from your home turf?

Don't you understand, that a simple hi would do.

That we don't have to flirt to engage with each other?

That you can be interested in knowing me, without it being sexual?

That sometimes it's just not cool to be insistent.

That sometimes the whole checking someone out, getting to know one another shit, followed by disappointment is old, tired, dead and buried?

I don't want married guys, guys with partners, guys with regular fuck buddies, guys with illusions of grandeur, insincere guys. I don't want guys with the cheesy lines, heavy on innuendo, driping gold, garlanded with cologne that's like the cookie cutter of colognes i.e. worn by most if not all guys. . .I don't want any of that.

Because I'm not like that at all. And guys, surely we can all do better. I think in the name of 'sameness', manliness etc. the original, super duper guys have been lost. Now they're all like Marie biscuits. Eyes lighting up at the exposure of leg, flesh, breast etc. (often unintentional), never seeing past the boobs to the brains....

Anyhoo, I digress, this post started out as something totally different.

On another note:
Always speak up and speak out, it could save a sista (totally as an aside)